Wistful Thoughts

so christmas is in 13 days…ugh…lol. no more of brody. wasnt gonna work. ive been trying this online dating. its been workin out ok…met 3 great really different guys. 

alan is 26. he nice, sweet, and easy to talk to. hes from davenport and actually drove here to meet me. The date went well. we had maid rite and then went to see four christmases. he didnt talk much but i thought it was just because we were eating and then in the movie. after words, brittany and brandi showed uo to meet him. nope. lol thay didnt like him. also hes was a little to proper. not once did he look down my shirt or check me out. oh well.

Frank is 18. he sexy and really turns me on. but all he talks about is sex. wich i mean i know hes a guy but common.

Then theres Dan. hmmm…lol Dan. absolutly georgous. or atleast in my sense of the word. piercings and tattoos. super sweet and nice. when hes horny he totally isnt afraid to let me know. Hes the one im most excited about. lol.

Two years ago i discovered Clive Barker’s book Abarat. The first thing i noticed about the book is that if you flip it upside down it still says “Abarat”. Courious as to what this might be called i looed on several websites. Wikipedia had the answer. It is an ambigram, or, “a graphical figure that spells out a word not only in its form as presented, but also in another direction or orientation.”  That’s quoting wikipedia.

After reading the first book, I looked around for the second book. It was just as good if not better than the first one. The series is for young adults, or teenagers, but I find his writings in these books to be refreshing and colorful. The detail and descriptions he puts in to his books is something to comended. The only down side to reading this series is that after finishing the second book, i now have to wait for the third one to come out. Its not due until 2009 and i have already been waiting a year. There are worse things in life, such as getting a hang-nail or perhaps stubbing your toe on a cold day (which always seems to hurt more) but the situation i’m in really sucks monkey balls.

Why is that whenever something in my little world starts to look promising, it goes straight to shit? For example: At the begining of the June I started a job at Sears. Its a good job and I love the people I work with but as of last month my job security is in danger. My stats in SPP’s and PA’s are so low that the managers wonder if i should even stick around. At the begining of this summer i met quite a few cool people. One hates me, his best friend is adorable, one is dating my best friend, im having meaningless sex with one, and the other is jealous. Its bad news. The guy im haveing sex with…oh my. i dont even know how to explain my self with him. When things first started I thought he liked me the way i liked him. Apperently not. It seemed like sex was all he wanted. But i cant complain i guess. I just let it happen. Well any ways here is where it goes to shit. About a month ago he fell off the face of the earth. Nobody had seen him or heard from him. do you know why? HE WAS IN JAIL!  Jail! Of all places. And here i am, pissed off because i think that hes fucking another girl when it the guys i have to worry about!

Quote of the day : “The man who smiles when things go wrong has thought of someone to blame it on.” – Robert Bloch